23 June 2011

Misery Bones

When I am without you

I'm stricken in the skin with 
misery bones

A well in my face pilled with a bucket of dust
The doors split and crack like a baby-boy scribble-draft bubble-fuss
The red rivers running slow and cold
and the current feels old
So deep a grief like a green-barred thief
in the depths of a gully between time and space
I rob you with my own sullen face to your face
You let me rape a mirror holding us
but I lock my look-eyes when the doors are closed
and fantasize of memory-thoughts froze
frozen to be broken
But I keep them cold and held to hold until I thaw
Just a step - toward the raw fire - that the dripping can commense
and soften the bark on my skin and heart

Oh these misery bones need a home in your home
'cause they break and they shake and they're alone

When I am without you

25 April 2011

The Ardoration of Sheridan

A barrage of feathers have floated past my cavities of vibration
tickling as they brush by
whispering a story on the wind
Oh! the news they bring - it bleeds!

And layers of a barking tree were opened up before me 
remains of a black inky sap must've spoken with the gentle feathers
because silently they too hand my eyes the living news story

And the ink and the feathers step where they've been and not been before
softly ignited in light made to fight for
made to article and be whisked in the dead of the night to every soul's porch

Oh! Light - I've vibrated at your name
and licked by my eyes
you in the same
But be it so you glow before me around me without a shadow
I bend you to never leave

But my skin confronts me different
Any photon zipping through their brothers
was chucked from a home at which it was conceived
And all though I know they are not seeds
and their rings are grown
their center does not lie 
that they lie amidst young-sized keys 
to heaven

I can listen to the feathers chirp for the ages
and drip with ink for as long as I bleed
but I might as off be walking dead around this spinning grave that I am a strange vagabond to 

I've seen and felt and tasted and smelt this light
but deep within me lashes out
with a sonic ruckus
for a way to the rolling hills of origin
that they may be among us
The vibrative illuminating and boiling oil and ascending wings
were birthed of fire!

Since amidst the lightning - I must be with the sky
and burn upward or at least try to see the morning star
because it's lightless and warmless now

My lonely me and lonely chance is to be within the flame
and dance my guts out!
and shout about!
Or gravitate sharply to my knees 
lacking a move or vibrating breeze
But through any obedient doorway threshold
the skeleton's skeleton's marrow's heart
is sewn together by yarn of love
to The Beginning - spark of true blaze

It's come to me that I was thought for - knitted together in her warm cave for - placed on an aqua rock for
COLLISION
of two rosy drums - mine and The Big One
We're meant to ram and slamma-jamma into eachother's face at such velocity
with such zealous vigor and strain
that all facets and manner appear as one and the same
It was evening and then morning
a first day
A cackling ball of helium and hydrogen
rolled up on two lovers in the hay
hallowing to fall in love again

Oh! me - that I might share thee with the navy rock
The arson of every piece I've ever wrapped my skin in
That thine own shackles were fastened to a tree
the furthest beyond the past of me




Leave the sea for a tide and spend a moon opening your eyes
The sexual depth of a satellite's groping in circles
around the core of its heavenly-body lover
of dovely luminescence existence
in a vacuum
oh 
how 
they
burn
Oh! dearest - how they blaze
With ache for the yearning
I dwell in the gaze

11 April 2011

Polar Bear

i bear shackles of two lovers - one on each wrist
and licked one's lips like a shuttle
the other I betray with a subtle kiss

a sweet water tumbles over my teeth
along side a bitter wine i happily drink
but its poison deludes what purity

i take myths to dinner and flake on truth with lies
i fill balloons with rocks
i author a history of peace with a war-pen
pedal to the medal with my eyes on the prize in the rear view mirror
i speak kindly in disguise 
i walk on stilts so to see the tallness i may reach

and the wax in my ears and eyes 
wanes my will to see your teeth 
or hear your cry
nor taste your tears or thorn in our side
nor touch the hands holding scars
nor smell this burning flesh of ours

down the middle i tear apart
forgotten
up the center - a torn curtain that started it all

i conquered the wall - but saddled its midst
i hopped the fence - but sat on it to insist
my existence-ness better off to enlist in both armies
and resist falling hardly in love and out of love
and parted from my brokenhearted King

insteading to mend the sharp thread between our stains of red and white

might i let freedom set me free indeed tonight
so as to become an entirety of light
called to fight the good fight
and bring sight to the blind
and light to the darkness
and peace to the mind
hug anger with kindness
and cure deafness with a sound
and as The End walks into town
already have my King be crowned
as a master over my life
as a slave - as a bride

why

this and that
no. Him
here and there
no. Him
white and black
no. Him
flake and flare
NO HIM!

magnetize one way 
bear one pole bare to the soul
only as The Way of old

cross over - wade the Jordan
though the valley and river be walked in dark and foggy
and overrun with towers of men of war
FEAR HAS RUN AWAY
and the land is lush and sunny
and Joshua is swimming in milk
and Caleb is dripping with honey
cross the water

and dont go back
DONT EVEN LOOK BACK
you're home

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be one or the other
and bear the love you love
as the only love you love
and be the utmost of lover

26 March 2011

The Zealousy

I run
over many moons
I've run from a distance with my eye on the path
but the path began to drift
and I toward the wrath

the Way began to narrow
and my vessel adopted an apnea for fostering and catering the cratering of my span
I began to implode and run out of road
like a depraved old man of bones

One foot frosty - one foot fiery
but neither of me as either entirely 
and from the tasty lips of a beauty filled mouth
when my strung out tongue asked favor come down
words - as lucid rain for a dried up town - met me
with revolt and violently spewed me out

hence...I awoke

like a terror in the night
my heart broke and soul started a fight

The time for pillows out of newspaper has burned up
Haven't your iris' licked the headlines?
WAKE UP!
The rooster's hymn has sang three times!
and your eyelids have been falling for meadows of lies

Blue suns wide - I run no more sitting paralytic
My knees wobble and creak but they lock and I rank the chair
and it sits pathetic and weak
and I strip myself bare of all of me there

I brake shackles
I burn flesh
I beat my body and make it my slave
and its master's master thresh me
lest I be rooted in mess
or dressed with the grave

I fix my eyes - may they be blind
with ruthless love throbbing with passion
and wet with fiery zealousy

O Captain, my Captain!
Yell to me a charge from the depths of your heart
and I WILL RUN

11 February 2011

Guest

I need you - as always as usual - to turn my heart around
and spin the inside of my veins 
and drain them of my infection

I'm sick
I take a drug that's easy
and it slowly and lovely wrecks me
I don't need it! But oh my God I want it!
Oh my God I don't want to want it because 
I need you
Desire knows the combination
You're the code and I desire to desire
you - only

A work, so magnificent, need be geared in me
Only an existence of ultimate magnitude - infinite - could be considered
Good thing I have this tool in the cavity of my chest
slowly - at a tick of other dimensions - re-arranging a dirty room

Don't you ever stop - no matter how messy it gets - no matter how rusty things grind
You will always find me

broken
under your toes
rotten
the only rotten thing ever raised back to life and full

Anoint me with love like smooth oil
but bash the canister over my skull
and crack it open to crack it open

I know it stings

I'd rather die otherwise

I gave my life away a long time ago so that it should sow and be sowed by only Worthy
Pain is irrelevant
Bring me Death and I shall crack with joy

Sorry - I'm not from around here
Just passing through and using the air for speaking truth
and dripping passion in a trail behind me

My home I left twenty years back and I've been walking ever since
but I'm heading back now
Soon as the return of a prince I'm close with

He once took a floppy corpse
six feet under - below all sea level
and touched it
And it rose up and bloomed a new breath
and took a stand and step on top of the waves
The beaten had never died
for the Groom stomped the face of the one who touched His bride
In this world I am overcome with misery 
and drowned under adversity of a backwards current
But I will hold true to The Love 
because it has overcome the world

11 January 2011

Grave Crave

I could be a happy man
but without you
I'd rather die
I could never feel pain again
but without you
I'd rather die

I could travel across the land
but without you
I'd rather die
I could even fly unmanned
but without you
I'd rather die

I could be free to go
but without you
I'd rather die
I could please my heart although
without you
I'd rather die

I could fall deep in love
but without you
I'd rather die
I could spin the stars above
but without you
I'd rather die

I could be stolen of my life
but without you
I'd rather die
I could live and I could die
but without you
I'd rather die
and with my life I will proclaim
the romance of the very name
that gave me life - that gave me love
and deeply love my life will rain

Broken Bow

Waking up to sparrows dancing in the snow
with their feathers lit up from the reflecting glow
Twenty years ago the creek had already known
that their purpose was a show for Me


Sunrises and steam paint on a canvas of wood
seasoned on by a screen of smoke and soot
and a drippy rhythm that knew it should
copy the still move of the beat inside of Me


Vibrating lungs pressed up against quivering strings
on an empty casket with a din that brings
a billion celestial eyes out to see the rings
awing straight through them from my eyes and Me


Still in the middle of the night in the middle of the forest
with my knees in the leaves and a bow and a horse
archers come flying from the West and the North
surrounding the tree that is the back of Me


Blood in my tracks and my hands gone numb
and my broken bow half and an ascending hum
of a foamy mouth choir with hearts of scum
scoffing to the drum of a defeated Me


I thought this time as an ample kingdom of mine
I saw this place as my manifested angel shrine
Now I'm a dead leaf with weapons of a severed kind
arranged on the floor of the forest - ready to leave Me


A wind picks up and lifts a crunchy leaf
and speaks a soothing word over dying and grief
Your weapon is no use and your foe is no chief
Take off your crown and quiver and let your roots be Me


An enthralling lifting of lights by a yawning fire
sweeping away shadows and waking my dwelling prior
revealing a ravished heart in the snow and a broken bow wire
Entirely for me - not from me - beauty is not me
but You